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Monday, November 23, 2009

war #2 DOWN!
war #3 & #4, here i come to conquer u!
but b4 i do so.. let me zzzz 1st =p

this is for my dearest, u shld knw who u r.
sis, this is for u..
it hasnt been an easy journey for you.
but once again, u've emerged through the most struggling times.
once again, life challenges you.
will you accept this challenge?
u have been right? thats why you are doing what you are doing now.
it muz have been tough. so overwhelming that it tore you apart.
so overburdening that you dont even knw wat u r doing.
nonetheless, i'll always be there for you.
never ever am i going to leave you to face all these trails alone again.
*HUGS*
i hope to hear you and see you soon.
wanna give u a comforting smile and hug, in hope to ease off all the burden.
its ok to be weak at times, who says that we muz stand strong all the way?
right my dear?
u also have me =)

it was a lovely relaxing dinner =)
for once in so long, i enjoyed today =)

after so many days of reflecting.
there were many times when i thought that i may regret my choice.
there were many times when i thought that maybe i would wanna 'back out'.
there were many times when i thought i was just being 'irrational' - too harsh.
there were many times when i thought i shldnt have made that choice.
there were many times when i thought that the thingy meant as a 'hint'.

BUT today.
i suddenly realised.
how 'relaxed' and 'enjoyable' it was, as compared to other times.
perhaps, i needed that kinda certainty, all the long.
something which i've not really been living in all these while.
something which i thought i could survive without,
something which i was taught to survive without.
something which i thought i was used to it, and could live with it.

today, i realised.
certainty, could make me smile.
could make me feel so real.
could make me feel so safe.

i never thought that i needed that anymore.
coz in whatever situation i was thrown into.
i have to learn to deal with it.

but i was showed another perspective of life, all over again.
a more truthful view.
a simpler view.
something which i may so easily overlook.
something which i said i would treasure, tomorrow.
and guess wat, tomorrow never comes.

it's never easy to let go of the past.
especially when the past brings alot of happy memories, right?
i've told myself, and many others told me as well.
its ok not to 'let go' of the past.
just let the happy memories, stay as it is. thats ok, right?
yups. its ok.
its never easy to let go of something which you have attachment to right?
especially when those memories are worth remembering.

but today, i told myself. perhaps,
sometimes, we juz have to learn how to let go.
i imagined erasing all those memories from my memory.
i imagined letting everything go.
something which i thought i can never do.
and i feared. i teared. i nv thought i would.
its time to move on. move forward.
to truthfully begin. to really embark.
on a new chapter of life journey.

everyday's a new chapter of life journey.
and let today start the REAL new chapter.

for this new chapter.
i once fear again.
but at least, there's some certainty, for now.

show me the way.
no matter wat's the outcome.
the choice is not something which i would regret.
i dont intend to. i dont want.

"all things happen for a reason"
没有你的 xxx 天不要再数了不想再数了虽然还会流泪虽然还会回味过去我会用另一种方式看待你我知道不简单可是我可以做得到的我不要努力的一切都白费掉再见了现在的我还是说不出口这三个字但是慢慢的可能我就可以了吧不要再数了不想再数了

love ya lots for being so truthful to me.
love ya tonnes lots for being so real. =)
我要开始数我的另一端人生了第6天我告诉自己要珍惜一切要享受一切不要后悔

o~~ it's... 11:58 PM time to ; SHINE! *;

at this point of time..
it worries me all over again..

sometimes..
life throws u in many directions..

i'm on my own.
i knw.

o~~ it's... 1:19 PM time to ; SHINE! *;

Saturday, November 21, 2009

juz completed my exam war #1..
trying to steal some time to 'slack' a little while preparing for war #2 on mon =p

I love the air that evening.
the air was of pure beauty,
though it was a little cold, it was cooling and gentle.
the view was nice,
though it may not be the best scenery ever, it was lovely.
the sky was clear, the air was clean.
muz be the 'rainbow' after the storm.

as i smelt the air, it urges me to walk out of the door to take a look at the lovely view.

as i opened the door, a gentle cool breeze blew past me.

i enjoyed the amazing feel of nature.

it never fails to amuse me, bringing a sense of calmness, peace and not forgetting a gentle smile.

there was a sense of familiarity =)

just like those days when i go with heidi n family, travelling overseas =)

enjoyed those times together. really enjoyed it all. treasure it all as well!

at the same time, the weather actually inspired me.

inspired me to think, once again, triggered me to think abt..

LIFE.. and its meaning..

how can i make meaning in my life?

how can i make meaning in others as well?

我們是兩顆會痛的石頭猛烈衝撞後裂了縫永遠都不會懂什麼叫認錯還想愛卻調頭放手心疼你是顆會痛的石頭想要抱住卻混亂沈默倔強的表情裏閃過了失落你的淚讓我痛

只是一个问候你却让我白费了这些日子的努力对不起

o~~ it's... 9:48 PM time to ; SHINE! *;

Sunday, November 15, 2009

i've learnt how not to..
all over again..
thanks..

i wondered how i survived thru all those.. sometimes.. u knw.. i nv wanted to..

o~~ it's... 1:51 AM time to ; SHINE! *;

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

as i walked by the same path

as i walked by the same journey

as i heard the same sound

as i see the same scenery

o~~ it's... 5:18 AM time to ; SHINE! *;

Monday, November 09, 2009

learnt from u
resilient

fast quick

"you knw wat u shld do.."
u nv left. not a single bit.

hop-hop-hop-jumps-on-you HUGS ptbf!

o~~ it's... 2:14 AM time to ; SHINE! *;

Sunday, November 08, 2009

tired??

no no..

its more like disappointment..

o~~ it's... 11:11 PM time to ; SHINE! *;

Saturday, November 07, 2009

3-4yrs.. alot of things can happen.. right?
hahaha..
was flipping thru my emails..
& guess wat i've found!
dont be shocked!

this was taken 3 yrs ago! hahah

the 3 spokesperson for Giordano

HAHA!

福禄寿!

hahahaha

不要哭了吗该哭的人是我吧你都坦白爱上了他我有什么办法我也同意啦既然你提出想法我们不要拖拖拉拉就从明天开始吧那就这样吧再爱都曲终人散啦那就分手吧再爱都无需挣扎不要再问我怎舍得拱手让他你走吧到了记得要给我通电话那就这样吧再爱都要sayonara 再给抱一下闻一闻你的长发不要再哭啦快把眼泪擦一擦这样吧再爱我有缘的话

o~~ it's... 3:58 PM time to ; SHINE! *;

u've told me..

i did..

have u?

when was the last time...??

我很想恨你我很想不想你了我一直告诉自己我做的每一件事不能有你的隐映但是...

im on my own right my dear? but pls guide me. i knw i cant do this alone.

o~~ it's... 2:03 AM time to ; SHINE! *;